In 2020, while living in Sydney, I was balancing a demanding real estate job, studying for my law degree, and indulging in a lively social life. Despite the chaos, thoughts of returning to Brisbane lingered, though I considered chaos to be a lifelong companion.
On 20 December 2020, I encountered a turning point when I met Herschel, which coincided with the shattering of a long-standing belief. My straight allies often attempted to pair me with other gay men, but typically with little success. I hesitated when my brother, Nick, urged me to meet his ‘gay friend’ Herschel, convinced he was mistaken.
However, after flying back to Brisbane for Christmas and discovering Nick was at a party hosted by Herschel, I found myself bombarded with enthusiastic texts from Nick, who even offered to pay for my Uber. Initially resistant, I was intrigued by a video message from Nick and Herschel, who had a captivating presence with his curly hair and bright blue eyes. Curiosity got the better of me, and I made my way to the party.
Herschel and I clicked instantly, engaging in deep conversation, with Nick playfully whispering “I told you so” in the background. Our time together was filled with laughter, and what began as a “summer fling” soon turned into something more meaningful, despite my imminent return to Sydney.
Three months later, I made a significant life change by leaving my job and relocating back to Brisbane to focus on my studies. With Herschel’s calming influence, I embraced a new chapter in my life, filled with studying, cooking, and weekend trips. We often joked about our never-ending summer fling.
One afternoon, while watching the Disney movie Luca, I was unexpectedly moved, crying at the familiar themes of friendship and self-acceptance. Herschel’s comforting presence offered me immense relief; I felt safe and free from judgment. In that poignant moment, I realised my deep feelings for him and my desire to ensure our bond lasted.
A year later, we relocated to Sydney, where experiencing the city together transformed my perspective, turning it from chaotic to serene. As for Nick, I’ve learned not to dismiss his suggestions too quickly in the future.